Niti,

One of the things that comes to my mind when I am interacting with you is how do I do things that you might like. I have always unconsciously tried to search for patterns in the way you react to what I do. As I write this blog, I have realised that it has become a norm in life to look for patterns because, they kind of give you a feel that you are in control.

With you, everything goes for a toss. Here are the ways I have tried to get you to sleep

1. I tried to hold you by my shoulder and sing and it worked for a few days

2. I tried to carry you on my arms and swing them around and it worked for a few days

3. I tried to do a combination of 1 & 2 and that worked for a few days

4. I then put you inside the pram and moved it around for a few days

But, still there is no pattern emerging on how to get you to sleep at the earliest. It is frustrating at times because I think I have solved the problem and then you surprise me again.

Today, I have come to the conclusion that there are no patterns with you. You are random and I am not going to trick myself into believing that I have understood the pattern. It is difficult but for me but, i will try and learn the art of unlearning.